Shipping (per book) : 50
Genre : Poetry
TARGET AUDIENCE: Teenagers, Adults
Pages : 120
The human personality is like a mandala- it starts from the core of your being, and expands continuously in every direction, forming a beautiful, confusing canvas that is interesting to observe, but difficult to understand. Sanitised Hallucinations is a small exploration of the human psyche, focusing on emotions like anger, betrayal, sadness, emptiness, and the evergreen theme of the human experience- the indomitable will to survive.
you make me bleed
more than half my life
spent-blood, for children i haven’t made.
the sacred act-
making those innocent beings-
it’s anything but innocent!
my blood flowers
with shy red cheeks;
a lover lost in her red passion;
a mother- dying, birthing- red everywhere.
you gave me this body.
you gave me this blood-
this bloodstained week
of every month-
only to ban me from your worship?
is my blood not good enough for you?
girls with hair in varying shades of chocolate
stiff pastel dresses
pink lips, coyly painted
nails shaped and mended.
Heels high as the flames of hell
lapping at their burning ankles.
hairclips of tortoise-shell
an innocent anklet that tinkles.
dilated pupils hiding monsters
stiff smiles, perfected
posture, practised talk
to hide the ability to shock.
doll-like girls, dimpled faces
up their sleeves are stacked aces.
manicured fingers that throw curveballs
world domination in their designer holdalls.
Outrageous wear outrageously high heels
cut your hair outrageously short
wear that red lipstick that
kisses your plump lips an
outrageously dark red. don’t be “safe.”
don’t dab the lipstick on your
fingertip, to lighten it
like how you compromise
everything you like,
everything you wear,
everything you truly are
for society’s nod of approval.
for its “recommendation.”
for its character certificate.
don’t be the
“girl next door.”
walk down those dusty streets like
they’re your runway.
and the stares
and the whispers
and the disapproval
and the glint on your oversized, jackie o
Sanitised Hallucinations is a collection of 50 poems (many initially shared online through social media) that deal with myriad emotions and personal experiences. The poems are largely confessional in nature, and aim to capture the thoughts and feelings of a 20-something Indian woman. The poems vary in length and style and are written in a minimalistic format (in lower case) that allows the reader to decide which words and phrases carry the most substantial impact.
About the Author:
Samyuktha Nair was born on 24 May 1996 in Chennai to Malayali parents. She pursued her bachelor's
degree in English Language and Literature from Madras Christian College and her master's degree in
English Literature from The English and Foreign Languages University, Hyderabad. She has been writing
since the age of six, often poems and short stories abandoned halfway. Her first book, The Warriors of
Javida was published in 2012, and her second, The Family Mystery, in 2017. Sanitised Hallucinations is
her third book and first collection of poetry.
Samyuktha identifies as a feminist and is also an avid learner of languages. She is fluent in English, Hindi, Tamil, and Malayalam, and is currently learning Indian Sign Language. She has been an avid reader since childhood and does not restrict herself to a single genre- both in her reading and writing.